a note :)

I remembered clearly what kind of person I was in high school and all memories about my life. Those memories were tied together with smile. Perhaps, It had been a long time since I graduated from high school, and now I stand in different places. It is such a beautiful dream. I cannot believe that. I think that time passed fast. At that time, I was a student in Five Senior High School and now I study in English Department, Padjadjaran University. I feel that my life has been changed little by little because of many experiences that I have passed.

The change seems in all my life. Exactly, all things change like my body shape including weight, my experiences to face my life, my perspective of life, my behavior, my mind, and also my taste. If I remembered those things, I would smile happily because those memories are seemed beautiful and eternal in my heart.

I think that my life is very happy because I enjoy my life. I am very thankful to Allah because of many things that I have passed in my life. When I was in Five Senior High School, I felt that I was a bad student because I had ever felt to be punished by my teacher. At that time, I wore miniskirt that perhaps it disturbed people around me. However, it is different now, I realize that our life is not for us only, but my life should be credited to Allah because our life is too short. In this university, I learn many things about life. I try to respect many things includes my life. I try to use Jilbab and also veil in campus, I also follow many activities that are very useful to our life and life after life.

Actually, when I was in Senior High School, I had worn a veil, but I didn’t know why I had to use it. Now, I try to be responsible for many enjoyments that Allah has given to me in the form of give some Islamic education to people around me. I  really thank because I can reach many dreams little by little. I can publish my book, win many competitions, make a business, get a scholarship, get many friends, and also learn many things. These are happened because I try to do it and Allah wants me to get it.

I realize that my behavior cannot change without many people that love me so much. My parents are very worth people in this world. They give me everything that I want. I will promise that I will be a success person, not only in this life but also in life after life. Actually, I want to give my parents many precious things, but I feel that although I can buy all of things in this world, it is not worth at all if I think about their love to me. Believe me, I will be something then because all my life are credited to Allah SWT.

Sleep tight honey !!!

Teringat akan banyak hal yang terjadi ketika hujan tiba. Ketika ku buka cerita masa kecil yang berawal dengan kalimat 'once upon a time' dan berakhir dengan kalimat 'live happily ever after'.

Rindu rasanya mendengar cerita romantis dari berbagai buku itu. Bukan masalah akan kemesraan yang tercipta, namun buku-buku itu selalu berakhir dengan hidup bahagia selamanya.

Hidup bahagia selamanya, sebuah permainan kata hiperbola atau sebuah kalimat sarkasme yang dikemas secara bijak. Ironi, kata-kata yang tidak mungkin dicipta, selamanya.

Lamunanku kembali buyar tentang buku-buku dongeng seperti itu, yang memunculkan sosok pendekar atau pahlawan yang tak pernah kunjung tiba. Selalu berharap akan secercah harapan, namun itu semua hanyalah khayalan belaka. Aku memang hanyalah seorang anak-anak yang memimpikan seorang penolong, namun jangan bohongi aku dengan cerita-cerita seperti itu yang tak akan pernah ada.

gemerisik suara air kian membuncah.

Berisik, beradu, buyar, pecah, lepas.

Aku berlari. Berlari dari semua ikatan masa lalu yang ada dipundakku. Mengenggam erat pelindung hujanku dari aliran air yang deras ini. Ku genggam semakin erat.

Aku berjalan perlahan dari tempatku berpijak dan dari semua orang yang sedang menunggu kendaraan disini. Mereka khawatir. Berusaha menenangkan anak mereka yang menangis karena kedinginan, dan kelaparan.

Aku semakin tak sadarkan diri, berjalan tanpa sadar ke tengah-tengah keramaian jalan. Mata nanarku berbicara dengan keadaannya yang sembap. Ku beranikan diri terus berjalan, mengenggam pelindung hujanku kian erat hingga tanganku berdarah dan air mata yang terus berjatuhan.

Sepatu tuaku terus berjalan hingga akhirnya kudapati kendaraan itu begitu terasa dekatnya, terus melaju bersama angin, lampunya terang seterang pelita malam masa lalu, terdengar pula suara klaksonnya yang terus menderu dan seorang anak kecil kedinginan yang menjerit
"awaaaaaaaasssssssss"

Ku rasakan hentaman yang begitu keras, dan cairan merah dari mulutku sebelum semuanya gelap gulita.

PABLO

somebody like you were million to one
I can't believe it
you're one in a million

(miley cyrus- one in a million)

Pablo, when I write it, I really miss you. Love you :D

You're my only one that accompany me when I sleep, when I take a breath, when I face the world. Hahaha. I know you never say something to me or say yes and no when I tell you about my story. But, It doesn't matter because through your eyes, I know that you listen to me. You're my faithful listener. :))

Got me out here in the water so deep-another world :D

I want to enter your world. In another world, when you have a free time to imagine all the things into your heart and your mind. Some questions that I would ask you about; How do your world's form? How do about your family? your siblings? And How is about your delicious tea when you promise me? Is it true, Pablo? Answer me, Pablo ….. I am sorry, I forget all the things about you.

About you.

They say that good things take time, but really great things happen in the blink of your eyes. :)) . You're brown. Nice....., you always ease my pain and also my sadness. Don't say something Pablo, or I will cry because I am happy here and always ask how do I get here? And there you are. You're bland, you're nice, you're everything for me. When people always pretend to be something, especially in front of me, you're different because you're what looked like.

Thanks

Thank you because you always beside me when I need you. Thank you because you always listen to me. Perhaps you are tired because of that, but really I don't know how to thank more. Thanks in advance dear. You're my only one. You're my nice doll :))

I didn't think twice or rationalize

(miley cyrus-one in a million)

:D :D